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I will come out unaffected as I always do
without a scratch or scar to show
the damage done inside like I never knew
stand up and make you believe I'm invincible

my heart starts to die
as I let the creature take control
make me blind, make me not feel life
let me sink further into this hole
take away the control I had inside
slipping away as it slowly takes its toll


every man for them self
only the strong will survive
and those who don't
simply have to die


so unstable I can barely stand
the whole world is spinning away
I lost thoughts of you like I planned
just to wash back over me another day

I can't take what I feel inside
thoughts coming out so confusing to me
how can a heart feel that has already died
when every love I had, left me to bleed

why would I love one so tainted
I've never fallen for the dirty girl
but maybe that's just the picture she painted
to keep everyone at bay in this world


so crazy, mixed up, drinking it all away
so dirty, filthy, yet sinfully sweet
want you, can't have you, release my pain
love me, hate me, I'm so incomplete

I let the creature win
a creature created from the inside
to hide away all my sin
destroying the pain that I hide
©2008-2010 ~WhAtUDiDnTCrEatE
:iconwhatudidntcreate:

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story of drinking away thoughts of another failure. the creature referred to here is alcohol.

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:iconhopelesswriter:
I would never drink only to stop the pain and memory. I don't think running away is the option. I understand that it's hard to get over the past but sooner or later you have to face it.

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impossible... again... well, I'm sure it'll work out. we'll do something about it. even if it is impossible according to the rules set out by the noble angels... we don't care 'cause we're idiots.
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
I'm not running away from the past this time. I'm trying to block out the present. these are things that have been going on the last 2 weeks or so.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconhopelesswriter:
Is it really so horrible that you cannot endure without alcohol?

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impossible... again... well, I'm sure it'll work out. we'll do something about it. even if it is impossible according to the rules set out by the noble angels... we don't care 'cause we're idiots.
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
I've fallen in love with someone who doesn't want to be loved. someone who sleeps around because she thinks she's not good enough to be loved.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconhopelesswriter:
and what is wrong with not wanting to be loved? it is her choice and you should accept it. to love someone sometimes means to let that person go

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impossible... again... well, I'm sure it'll work out. we'll do something about it. even if it is impossible according to the rules set out by the noble angels... we don't care 'cause we're idiots.
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
i do accept it. I haven't tried to force her into anything. I've respected her wishes and let it go but that doesn't mean it hasn't been tearing me apart inside knowing she has feelings for me too and she doesn't want them because of what the last guy did to her.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconhopelesswriter:
you should then prove her that you won't hurt her, that you'll take good care of her. you need to gain her trust. and getting drunk won't help you do that

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impossible... again... well, I'm sure it'll work out. we'll do something about it. even if it is impossible according to the rules set out by the noble angels... we don't care 'cause we're idiots.
:iconxdarkmusicianx:
This is absolutely breaktaking! Amazing work you have here; it's a very interesting and original take on "the creature" called alcohol. :D Awesome job! *fave*

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~Music without lyrics is the same as life without love - no music, no life

~It only takes one half step to change a minor key to major :D

Asexual & proud to be!

xROCK ONx
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
sad but true honestly... this is what my life has become.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconxdarkmusicianx:
i'm sorry
i mean, i can't even imagine the struggle with alcohol (to me the stuff tastes like shit)...but in the end, what does it do? it just makes the pain worse

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~Music without lyrics is the same as life without love - no music, no life

~It only takes one half step to change a minor key to major :D

Asexual & proud to be!

xROCK ONx

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