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I will come out unaffected as I always do
without a scratch or scar to show
the damage done inside like I never knew
stand up and make you believe I'm invincible

my heart starts to die
as I let the creature take control
make me blind, make me not feel life
let me sink further into this hole
take away the control I had inside
slipping away as it slowly takes its toll


every man for them self
only the strong will survive
and those who don't
simply have to die


so unstable I can barely stand
the whole world is spinning away
I lost thoughts of you like I planned
just to wash back over me another day

I can't take what I feel inside
thoughts coming out so confusing to me
how can a heart feel that has already died
when every love I had, left me to bleed

why would I love one so tainted
I've never fallen for the dirty girl
but maybe that's just the picture she painted
to keep everyone at bay in this world


so crazy, mixed up, drinking it all away
so dirty, filthy, yet sinfully sweet
want you, can't have you, release my pain
love me, hate me, I'm so incomplete

I let the creature win
a creature created from the inside
to hide away all my sin
destroying the pain that I hide
©2008-2009 ~WhAtUDiDnTCrEatE
:iconwhatudidntcreate:

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story of drinking away thoughts of another failure. the creature referred to here is alcohol.

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:icontulip-chan:
o: That's awesome how you wrote that and referred to drinking in such a way. You did a good, job. I don't think anyone should drink their problems away, it could end worse than they wished it would :(

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:iconxdarkmusicianx:
This is absolutely breaktaking! Amazing work you have here; it's a very interesting and original take on "the creature" called alcohol. :D Awesome job! *fave*

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~Music without lyrics is the same as life without love - no music, no life

~It only takes one half step to change a minor key to major :D

Asexual & proud to be!

xROCK ONx
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
sad part is it's the truth of what my life has become recently. I've let myself start to have feelings for a girl who is reckless and sleeps with multiple guys. I spend so much time with her and let myself start to care about her and I finally told her how I feel and she told me she can't be in relationship right now and just wants to be single and on her own for a while. I just don't understand it because we spend so much time together and we practically are together. so this is how I've been dealing with everything. her, the accident, family, everything...

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
sad but true honestly... this is what my life has become.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconxdarkmusicianx:
i'm sorry
i mean, i can't even imagine the struggle with alcohol (to me the stuff tastes like shit)...but in the end, what does it do? it just makes the pain worse

--
~Music without lyrics is the same as life without love - no music, no life

~It only takes one half step to change a minor key to major :D

Asexual & proud to be!

xROCK ONx
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
the struggle isn't with alcohol, the struggle is trying to keep this girl out of my head. it does taste horrible but it makes things go away, makes you think less, makes you see more of what you want and less of what you don't. read the other comment I left Tulip-Chan on this one and you'll understand I think.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~
:iconxdarkmusicianx:
it sounds like you really care about the girl and are offering her all the support you can - that's a very good thing to do; she probably sleeps around so much and claims she can't be in just one relationship because she has a serious insecurity with herself - quite a few women go through many short-lived relationships because they are afraid to open up to and truly love someone in fear of rejection

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~Music without lyrics is the same as life without love - no music, no life

~It only takes one half step to change a minor key to major :D

Asexual & proud to be!

xROCK ONx
:icontulip-chan:
D: I'm so sorry. But hey, didn't she say she can't be in a relationship right now? That doesn't mean never and that doesn't mean she doesn't feel the same way. But that's still not a good way to deal with things, no matter what the case. It could all end with one drink, or a drunk car accident, you never know. And you may never know if you get yourself killed while you're drunk. It's just not a good thing, I'll always be here for you and I'm sure you have other friends that'll help you through this too. Just keep hoping. I'm sure everything will turn out fine.

I'm always here for you, remember that~

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[link] ~ Come this way to live a life in shadows and wonder...
:iconwhatudidntcreate:
no i don't do anything like drive while I'm drunk. I don't leave the house when I drink. apparently talking to her today she does care about me and about how I feel which confused me even more. maybe things will work out eventually but right now it's just got me hurt and confused.

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Just tell it you didn't play with it because you were out getting stoned... It'll understand
|M|A|S|T|U|R|B|A|T|I|O|N| Your Anti-Drug

~Chris~

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